Breakoutta this Joint

After the whole Brent episode, I was reconsidering everything. Under the circumstances, Patrick turned out not to be that bad. After the whole Sidney thing with the "She's not in love with you", I knew it. My parents forced me into this. I didn't want to be forced to do anything that I knew wasn't for me. That was the problem though. I loved my nursing job back in Pittsburgh. Here, it is literally hell. The main nurse here is Lucy Shedlocke. Lucy has auburn hair and green eyes. I call her Drisela because she reminds me of the evil stepsister in Cinderella. She is a real bitch. She is real intimidating and nothing is ever good enough for her. My old nurse boss was Shelly LaVerne. Shelly was awesome. Shelly made everything always so happy and outgoing and Lucy is the complete opposite. Basically, Chicago is hell. Pittsburgh was heaven. I had it made. Sidney was even there. I promised myself we were over and I wouldn't think of him anymore but I still do. Patrick is nothing to me. The sex isn't even any good anymore. When it comes to marriage and love, you have to make the decisions for yourself. My parents aren't my boss. As much as I want them to be, they aren't. My heart doesn't lie with Patrick, it lies with Sidney.
I made up my mind. I was going to tell Patrick I don't want him, give back the ring, and fly to Pittsburgh. I was risking everything I had ever known just for the sake of one boy. I just had to tell him now. I was sure that even if it meant losing my parents that I was doing it anyway. They aren't me and for once should be taught that the hard way.

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"Hey babe do you have a minute?" I asked. Pat was out in the garage.
"For you love anything." He answered.
"I think you should sit down." I replied.
"Brittnae you didn't kill anyone did you?" He asked.
"No babe it's just I have been thinking." I began.
"Okay." He said.
"I'm being serious. I want to give this back." I continued as I took the diamond engagement ring off.
"I'm not so sure I understand." He spoke.
"I believe we should have the chance to go and find our one true love darling. I don't want my parents to make that decision. So I think we should go our separate ways." I finished.
"Why did you go along with it for so long then? Brittnae I learned to love you. I don't want anyone else." He looked me straight in the eyes with his.
"Pat I don't love you. Trust me, when you find that special someone you will thank me." I assured him.
"Just get out." He replied coldly.
"But I have to pack all my stuff." I answered.
"Just GET OUT! I'll have it fedexed to you." He snarled with hot tears running down his face. I obeyed his orders.
I can't believe I hurt him so bad. He didn't deserve that.
Did he deserve me?