Just the start of Something Old

I started an internship at the local hospital and took college courses online the day after I arrived. It's hard to believe that I have been in the Windy City now for over a month. I recovered over my little slump of depression after I had seen Sidney in the first time since my world turned around in a week. I was over him. Patrick was my now. I was so over him, I decided to start texting him one day when Patrick was at morning skate. I whipped out my phone and unblocked his number. I starting to type away.

Hey Sid its Brittnae, I don't know if you want to talk to me again or not

Send. This didn't feel too bad. A couple of minutes later I got a reply.

Well your husbands boyfriend really did get a point across.

My husband's boyfriend? Wow. He was real cool.

Yea well I cant help it you're a dick and hes not

He was starting to get real smartassy with me. I didn't care. I looked at my 15 carat gold diamond engagement ring the entire time. Compliments of Patrick three days earlier. I couldn't argue. The boy had taste. Two seconds later a reply.

Well I do have a dick so thanks for pointing out the obvious Captain Spazzo

Captain Spazzo? What are we in the first grade again?

I didnt text to argue with you and just to let you know that night was real special and I will never forget it. Patrick doesn't do it as good as you.

Doesn't do it as good as you? I'm starting to sound like a whore! We haven't even been sexually active since Pat and I got together.

Pittsburgh's only a couple of hours away

Only a couple of hours away? I'm engaged and Sidney wants to sleep with me again! I thought about his offer and then I thought about Patrick for two minutes.

Consider me there.

Oh god. I'm the biggest whore I know. I left a note on the kitchen table that told Pat I was driving up North to go shopping. A real good lie too. I was about to cheat on my fiance. I was about to throw away everything I ever believed in for the sake of love. Our love was different than Patrick's and mine. We were in a forbidden love. I didn't care. Sidney was my Jacob Black and Patrick my Edward Cullen.

I was a fish on a hook. I couldn't find myself. Those eyes... his hair.. those huge lips... that bootylicious ass... he was a sex god. I was his little pet.

WHAT HAVE I GOTTEN MYSELF INTO?!!!!!